salam.
its been quite awhile since i updated this dusty old blog.
alott has happen since then.
i found someone new...
i really thought i did.
for once i thought something good is gonna happen in my life again.
however, there's always a But.
a But with a capital B.
things always dont end in e way i expect it to be.
it jush doesnt.
im still back to square one.
getting hurt in e process.
loving someone, being nice to him...
and still get hurt while seeing hym be happy with e other party.
why ohh why...
why is my fate always this wayy....
im always nice to everyone, but....
people keep stepping all over me.
time and time again.
and i will still be nice to people.
its jush in my nature to do that.
i dunn even have any answer to why im too nice sometimes.
even he said im e nicest person he ever met.
but, will he do anything about it.
will he change his mind about me?
will he?
no.
see, nice people dont get what they want.
they jush dont.
e only people who stood by me all this while has been my lovely bestfriends.
all of them.
they were e ones who catch me when i fall.
caz they know better im not strong enough.
im getting by each and everyday because of them.
i should stop making them worry about me.
i should worry about my health condition.
seriously. i cant have another episode of seizure attack.
i love my friends alott. i really do.
i dunno what i'll do without them by my side.
they listen when im angry, sad, happy and depressed.
they know what to say to me when im in different kindaf moods.
only they understand me.
these guys can jush go to hell.
seriously.
ive had enough of their bullshytting ways and their fucking crap.
they say one thing but they do another thing.
what kindaf fuck are they.
i dunno.
ttyl~
