
salam.
well, ive decided.
im going to make changes in my life.
im gonna do it.
and, i do hope my frens will accept me for who i am.
i really do.
especially wawa and siti.
i know hasanah will.
i have yet to tell them what im planning to do.
gosh.
its making me really nervous.
but, i know ive made up my mind.
and, i wanna start it soon.
insyaAllah.
its jush that...
e fact that...
the world is getting really old.
and, im really afraid i will run out of time.
Ya Allah, give me strength to succeed this time round.
ive been wanting to do it since like forever.
but, i jush cant find enough courage to do so.
would i be laughed at?
would i have lesser friends?
would people distance themselves away from me?
gosh.
Ya Allah, please give me e confidence to go through this tough phase.
i wanna do it soo badly.
i really do.
ive jush done enough against Allah's Commands.
i wanna re-hafal my quran too.
ahh, i really hope it will last.
i dunwann this to stop halfway again.
Astarghfirullahalazim.
may this be a reminder to me always.
i dunwanna end up in Neraka Wail.
i really dont.
*sobs*
ttyl~