salam.
well, ive decided.
if its not meant to be, then, its not.
if it is, then, we'll proceed.
for now, ive mix feelings.
really mixed.
as if it just went in e blender.
lol.
a friend told me, just wait and sort things out.
ive to tell him how i really feel and from there, see what happens next.
thats e hard part.
telling how i feel.
gosh. i dunnoe how. seriously.
sometimes i wonder,
does he even know what he means to me...
i know he cares..i know how he feels caz he's always straight forward about it to me
AND,
tells me each time we meet.
but, why do i feel its not enough.
why do i feel that i wann more...more than what he offers.
for what benefit will i gain ?
to satisfy myself? to clear my doubts?
and then, what?
like seriously.....
he gives me ultimate freedom as long as i dunn breach his trust.
and, i do e same to him.
i think its because things are going tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Fast.
and, im not catching up with his pace.
im still crawling while he is already jogging.
his confidence really scares me.
i dunnwann any high hopes...
it'd kill me deep inside if smtng happens in e future.
you're still My Stranger.
my Sweet, sweet Stranger.
and, you make me feel safe and secure despite all my doubts about you.
ttyl~
