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Thursday, August 5, 2010
6:09 AM

salam.
its been quite awhile since i updated this dusty old blog.
alott has happen since then.

i found someone new...
i really thought i did.
for once i thought something good is gonna happen in my life again.
however, there's always a But.
a But with a capital B.

things always dont end in e way i expect it to be.
it jush doesnt.
im still back to square one.
getting hurt in e process.
loving someone, being nice to him...
and still get hurt while seeing hym be happy with e other party.

why ohh why...
why is my fate always this wayy....
im always nice to everyone, but....
people keep stepping all over me.
time and time again.
and i will still be nice to people.
its jush in my nature to do that.
i dunn even have any answer to why im too nice sometimes.

even he said im e nicest person he ever met.
but, will he do anything about it.
will he change his mind about me?
will he?
no.
see, nice people dont get what they want.
they jush dont.

e only people who stood by me all this while has been my lovely bestfriends.
all of them.
they were e ones who catch me when i fall.
caz they know better im not strong enough.
im getting by each and everyday because of them.
i should stop making them worry about me.
i should worry about my health condition.
seriously. i cant have another episode of seizure attack.
i love my friends alott. i really do.
i dunno what i'll do without them by my side.
they listen when im angry, sad, happy and depressed.
they know what to say to me when im in different kindaf moods.
only they understand me.

these guys can jush go to hell.
seriously.
ive had enough of their bullshytting ways and their fucking crap.
they say one thing but they do another thing.
what kindaf fuck are they.
i dunno.

ttyl~




Sunday, June 13, 2010
8:24 AM


salam.
ouhh well.
another weekend burned jush liddat,
why did i spend e whole day sleeping?
ishhhk~
if not, i would get to go out and eat Free Seoul Garden
haiyakdush myself!
ouh well.

ahh, things are much clearer now.
i know for a fact that you need to think.
and, sometimes get angry easily.
aigoo.. i know it can be my fault at times.
but,its not as if im doing it on purpose.
obviously its due to work, sleep etc. etc.

and, cant wait to meet a friend of mine.
it'll be easier to meet and catch up with love ones now that i'll be working morning.
whee~
but, jush one thing...
i dont even know if i can wake up early laa.
hoho.

well, let time fly by and see what'sin store for me.
im soo jealous bestie is gg for another holiday trip without me!
to jakarta summore!
hmph.

nvm..
my days will come soon.

ttyl~


Sunday, June 6, 2010
11:36 AM


salam.
now, ive been werking for 4weeks already.
coming to 5wks tmr :D

ive made a really good friend there.
Sha is what i call her.
very friendly.
nice to talk to.

i do look forward coming to work everyday.
it keeps me busy atleast.
i dunnhav to think of unnecessary stuffs.

there is this someone who keeps me company everyday without fail.
i appreciate it alott.
thank you soo mucc.

recently, someone asked me whether i regretted e fight that happened more than a year ago.
i dont regret, but im sad that we separated.
after all those years that you've been there for me.
the ups and downs i went through.
i know it would be hard to mend e wound.
but, its not impossible.
in these kindaf situations, i can be really soft.

but, i know that both of them wont reconcile.
its up to me, i suppose.
ahh, what should i do?
im not sure myself whether we should be reunited.
after all these while.
the scars are that deep.

should we just move on as it is?
hmmm.

nevermind, let's see what happens when we meet up.
then, i'll judge from there.

ttyl~


Thursday, May 20, 2010
4:46 PM


salam.
aigooo.... i was actuerli forced to join e sin res idol.
gooooodness. why oh why.
it was involuntary at all.
audition is next tuesday even.

but, i love my workplace.
for now, that is.
during e training period.
since e real work hasn't commence yet.

ahhh. my first trip will be to korea!!!
with sha.
hoothoot.
its either we'll travel in oct/nov/feb... heh heh heh.
cant wait laa sia.

checked e availability for nov, still alott.

so, we will check it out one month prior to date.


hmm, well things are going mucc smoother right now.
hehe.
im liking e way things flow.
how peepol around me are.
ive got to catch up with my babes soon.
missing hasanah,wawa,siti damn mucc.

and others too~

although its hard to forget e past,

e things that happen in e future makes it easier to keep on goiing.
let this happiness last~

ttyl~



Sunday, May 16, 2010
5:32 AM

salam.
ahh...life gets complicated as e day goes by.
goodness.

what am i trying to do to myself?
i have no idea.

a decision has to be made soon.
real soon.
should i confide with my friends?
but, on a personal note, i have a rough idea on what they would say.

aigoo.
i really should do something about it.




Thursday, May 13, 2010
4:05 PM


salam.
o to ka jo. o to ka jo.
(what should i do?)

well, i need to memorize alott of e airport codes.
ahhh! its giving me a headache.
seriouslyy. i dont even know most of e cities in there. weird names!

well, on my first day of werk,
i already made friends.
haha.
it was jush a matter of being e ferz to talk.
so, yeah.
i got along well with peepol around me.
they are all very friendly. its a really great environment to be in.

i dont really eat mucc.
jush brought bread only.
then. upon reaching home, i would sleep till about 2+. eat snacks.
and sleep agaiin. till around 5+.
then, e memorizing begins.
and, eat lunch cum dinner.

making myself awake throughout e night was a real challenge for me at ferz.
but, right now, im coping with it.
hohoho.

ive another thing that i wish to address here.
i wunn go into details.
i'll jush be general.

well, recently, something sortta happen.
e thing that ive been trying to put at e back of my mind, came back.
in front of my eyes and happening right now.
and, a huge wave of feelings started coming back. gushing in.
ahhh...im undecided.

dreaming would be great. but, its reality.
why do i even hope for smtng that has a 50/50 chance.
ahh, why am i e kind that's easily swayed by smtng.
why am i jush not strong enough.
why do i lack confidence in doing things.

ahh.
to think of this...makes my heart flutter but at e same time, hurts me too.
let everything fall into place and see what's in store.

ttyl~


Wednesday, May 12, 2010
8:51 PM

salam.
soo, ive started werking ryte now.
night shift.
from 10pm to 7am.
with delta airlines.
a tired day everyday.

but, i meet new peepol.
they labelled me e baby among them caz im e youngest.
lol.

ahh, i'll try updating another time.
im getting ready to go to werk now.
ttyl~


Monday, May 10, 2010
1:08 AM



salam.
well, ive decided.
im going to make changes in my life.
im gonna do it.
and, i do hope my frens will accept me for who i am.
i really do.

especially wawa and siti.
i know hasanah will.
i have yet to tell them what im planning to do.
gosh.
its making me really nervous.
but, i know ive made up my mind.
and, i wanna start it soon.
insyaAllah.

its jush that...
e fact that...
the world is getting really old.
and, im really afraid i will run out of time.
Ya Allah, give me strength to succeed this time round.
ive been wanting to do it since like forever.
but, i jush cant find enough courage to do so.

would i be laughed at?
would i have lesser friends?
would people distance themselves away from me?

gosh.
Ya Allah, please give me e confidence to go through this tough phase.
i wanna do it soo badly.
i really do.
ive jush done enough against Allah's Commands.

i wanna re-hafal my quran too.
ahh, i really hope it will last.
i dunwann this to stop halfway again.
Astarghfirullahalazim.

may this be a reminder to me always.
i dunwanna end up in Neraka Wail.
i really dont.
*sobs*

ttyl~


Thursday, April 29, 2010
1:01 PM

salam.
its time.
time to just shutdown.
keep smiling all.
keep being happy.
caz that's what keeps everything moving.

ttyl~


Tuesday, April 20, 2010
12:57 AM

salam.
i feel soo tired.
exhausted mucc.
ive not had enough rest for days already and its really starting to wear me out.

i have been meeting Hasanah dearest alott lately.
and, not forgetting, Fatin Najwa.
ishhhk~!
gue rindu banget sama Aleesha sikk.
kangen banget utk jumpa dia hari khamis inihh.
nggak boleh sabar.
hehe!

so yeah..
i went to meet Hasanah and her group of friends.
lol.
shamir,vikram and ashraf...
haha..our second starbucks moment.
shamir is short.
he's around my height. lol.
and, i wore high heels just now.
enduring e excruciating pain on my feet. heh heh heh.
i need to get use to wearing them...

hmm.....
i have issues.
but, its too personal to say it here.
so, only my babies know them (:
ahhh...
how im loving my life right now.
never been better.

there would be obstacles in e future...
but,
i'll embrace them by putting a brave front.
with lovely babies supporting my back.
hehehehehe.

btw,i dunn like sweet talking mother fuckers.
i dont geddit how they can say something when they dont actually mean it.
so, usually when someone tells me something ridiculous..
i'll just be frank and tell them off.
haha!
its up to them to accept it with an open heart.
if they really do mean what they say...
then wait or just fuck off~!
lol mucc!

ttyl~